The day she broke up wif me..

Tis is the last blog im writing. Who knows wad might happen next. It all seem just instantly.. and i dint realised it.. I duno wad to do now.. all i do is just pointless.. Cant even sleep..eat or do my daily routine... keep tossing from my bed kept thinking.. Its like my soul is taken.. the cold chill to my stomach.. I cant take tis pain.. I duno wad to do. What hav i done wrong?.. Isit coz i care about u too much? isit coz i'm oversea for too long and the love juz faded away. but still dont understand why she cries for... does she still loves me? My eye is now dried up. i cried so much tat i think im having a fever... I felt hopeless and too depressed. Thought like my life is about to end here. But she told me she kept it for so long and wanting to tell me tat she had consider and reconsider her decision. I hope she is right about her decision.. I couldnt reject her decision coz i love her so much tat i juz wan her to be happy....... So i had to agree wif her decision. Besides, she dont love me anymore, tats wad she told me.. and tat really saddens.. I feel guilty for not being there for her during her bday tis year and tis christmas while in tis hell.. Since we broke up i dont think im ever get a chance not even a single chance to meet her again... coz i think its best for me not to get in her way... I hope she is happy. I hope she can find her peace. I hope one day she will find her true love.. goodbye my first love..